3 Months

Our Chloe girl is 3 months old.  And wow is she one amazing baby girl.  She might be the best baby.  I can say the boys were easy babies, but I can really say Chloe is EASY.  She is such a blessing to our family.

She is sleeping great, usually about and 8 hour stretch at the beginning of the night then a 4 hour block.  She goes to bed between 7:30-8:30 and we usually get up between 2-4 for her first feeding.  She wakes up so happy and ready to talk and squeal.  She loves watching her brothers play, she even tolerates them constantly in her face.  She also loves having conversations with us.  Man, I love this girl. 

I had to have a full body shot.  She is getting so big.  Gotta love all the little chub.

Bellies and Bows

I love, love, love little bows on girls.  So of course mine will always have one in...at least as long as she will tolerate them.  Chloe has discovered her hands and her clothes.  She is always grabbing her dresses and pulling them up to show off her yummy little belly.  And she is starting to chew on her hands and fingers.  Bring on the drool!

4 Generations

We celebrated Grandma Mina's 82rd birthday today.  The family headed out for a yummy lunch and good company.  And here you have it.  4 generations all sitting together.  I am so lucky to have my grandmother so close and that I got to have her all growing up.  Now she gets to meet my beautiful family.  This doesn't happen very often and I am so lucky to have 2 wonderful grandmothers to share my babies with.
Happy Birthday Grams! I love you!

Our family

This is our family from Zackary's perspective. In order of birthdays.

Today

Today is a sucky day.  I'm going to be totally honest.  Every year on THIS day, I can say it sucks.  Regardless of what happens I HATE this day...  12 years ago today I lost my older brother Jason.  There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about him and what he would have been like, or what we would be doing together with our families.  Or how my kids could have had more cousins and I could have more wonderful little nieces and nephews running around.  How my parents could have more little grand kids to love on.

Yes, I understand I'm assuming a lot that could have been.  Maybe he would not have wanted kids or he wouldn't be doing what I imagined, but dang it, why didn't we get to see what he could have done or who he could have been as a grown man.  It makes me sad that my children will never get to meet him.  I know my 'why' questions won't ever get answered (at least not now).  And dang it I have lots.  Why did he have to suffer?  Why so young?    

Why? Why? Why?

I MISS HIM.

I hate that he is gone, I hate that I remember this day 12 years ago like it was yesterday.  How sad my entire family was (and still is), what we did for the next couple of days after.  How I had to hear my  parents cry so hard and be so sad.
Time does heal, but it is always difficult for us.  I can't even begin to imagine how my parents felt.  I know that it is even more painful for them.  I however am so thankful that they have healed together and made their marriage work through everything they went through.

I thank God everyday for the great things He has given me, health, family, friends, etc.  I pray that we never have to go through something like this again.  I am so thankful for the family I have and how incredibly wonderful they all are.  I try to cherish everyday, even the difficult ones and remember how great things in my life are.
This all has made me a better person, much more understanding, and more appreciative of the good things.

Jason I love you and miss you so much...

Lizard Habitat

We are really trying to get creative this summer, entertaining inside is a bit more challenging.  Today Aaron and the boys made a lizard habitat for all !the toy lizards.  They hunted a box, rocks, and some other supplies, made grass and water out of construction paper and viola!  Hours of entertainment.